So Low

somehow I feel like a very very very 'low' human being now
it hurts somewhere
is it the heart? or maybe the lung?
or maybe it's deep inside... the place where none of a human being could reach
it's trapped beyond the blurred darkness
it's been dying since then
both the eyes and the heart could no longer see and feel
it makes its own prison
now they're being locked in a invisible one-room cage
something is going to flow out from this self
a terrifying unidentified emotion
emotion which doesn't show a thing but resemble many things
the weight of the burden

looking at the screen... there laying this dead body
left with nothing remains

what is this feeling orz

a-a-a
test test //no
e-ehm //juststop

...
...well
I don't even know why should I write about this in the first place

[warning: full of broken english (maybe) since this is kinda complicated for me]

so...
...
aaaa I don't know where to start
everything is just so...
hmm ok just start from the beginning of all this weird things
tbh I won't tell everything straightforward since tbh (again) I don't really want people to know myself
the purpose of this blog and all of its posts are to make me remember the old me
just that.. and that's enough for me
my future self, do you understand that?
I don't need anyone to come visit this blog and read my posts
I just want myself to read this again someday
maybe my future self will laugh or cry or whatever
it have no bussiness with the me right now

so...
I've been in a super bad mood since last hours and that's because my aown fault so I have no one to blame
but I'm kinda stressed and don't know what to do and I feel like this world would end.. no, not really, just kidding..
I just feel like I want to cry but my eyes won't lol
and somehow at that timing my hand started to move on its own //noway
and I strarted draw my inner self (?) on a canvas (paint tool sai canvas to be exact) and it turned out quite.. hmm... good maybe
and I draw more and more and everything turned out to be my own self (in many ways)
kinda dark, gloomy, sad, lonely
well I admit that I'm actually that kind of person but still looking at that kind of drawing sometimes makes me want to smile a litte
laughing at that dumb side of me
ah and then I also try to draw my emotion into a character and I add another character and I quite like the result and now I'm trying to continue that drawing and add some background story
it sounds kinda interesting so I want to give it a go
when I start drawing, my heart feels kinda... well I can't really explain it but maybe it's happiness? It hurts tho ww
well I think I should take a rest for a moment, otherwise my heart won't be able to take it lol since what I am drawing it soooo cute and beautiful and yet make me have a broken heart, really
but it's fine, I love it that way
so just fighting for this new.... hmm "project", maybe

okay I thinks that's enough
bye bye for now
I'll be back when something interesthing happened


clue: it's about crythm. don't forget it, okay?

Koi no Mahou wa Merorurira ☆ SoraMafu Mahou Shoujo After the ☆ Rain [Romaji Lyrics]

【Koi no Mahou wa Merorurira】

meroru ☆ merorurorira ☆

koi no merorurira ☆

mahou no hāmonī ☆

kotoba nanoni rarurerira ☆

jumon o tonaeru no ☆

kimi mo merorurorira ☆
koi no merorurira ☆
itsu datte koishiteru ☆
kono mahou wa naoranai ☆
tonaete merorurira ☆

【恋の魔法はメロルリラ】

メロリ☆メロルロリラ☆

恋のメロルリラ☆

魔法のハーモニー☆

言葉なのにラルレリラ☆

呪文を唱えるの☆

君もメロルロリラ☆

恋のメロルリラ☆

いつだって恋してる☆

この魔法は治らない☆

唱えてメロルリラ☆

got the original lyrics from twitter

amg everything is so cute... can't believe that's soraru's voice www mafu's voice is still noticeable though >w<

decided to find the lyrics and sing it happily~ I even recorded it >///<

maybe I'll upload it to my soundcloud later uvu

; ;

pada akhirnya... semuanya akan pergi
semua yang ada di hadapanmu akan berbalik dan menjauh...
semuanya...
bahkan mungkin suatu saat dirimu sendiri pun akan hilang
mengkhianati ragamu yang tinggal dalam kesepian
... dalam kebohongan... yang tak bisa dipungkiri merupakan suatu kenyataan
irama mangalun dalam sunyi
di balik rasa kelam yang menyelimuti senyuman
menguak tetesan kecil yang perlahan semakin deras mengalir
membasahi ujung yang tak bisa tersenyum lagi
dalam bodohnya dunia rasa sesal tak pernah lenyap
mengabaikan masa depan yang seharusnya dijalani
menghapus tapak yang bahkan belum terjadi
meninggalkan ruang tanpa makna di dalam gua tak bernyawa
...
...
...
bohong
bodoh
pergi
kenapa
sendiri
palsu
haruskah
perlukah
dimana
kosong
menatap
aku
kamu
kami
kita
dia
mereka
teman
...
penipu.

Amatsuki & Sako Tomohisa - Very Merry Christmas LYRICS

VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS

◆ Music: Tomohisa Sako (ShounenT)

◆ Lyrics: Amatsuki & Tomohisa Sako

◆ Arrange: yurin

◆ Illustration: chachagoma

◆ Movie: makinosena

◆ Mix: Tanahashi "UNA" Nobuhito

Kanji

街は真っ白に色づいた頃

消えない明かりが灯る

約束の木の下待ち合わせ

今日はこの街の誰もが

解けない魔法にかかる

君は少し遅れて駆け足で

白い息でやってきた

僕の頬が赤く染まるのは

いつもよりも脈が早いのは

寒さのせだけじゃない

今日は数えきれない物語が

この街でキセキを紡いでゆく

君のこと こんなにも

愛しいと思えるほど

そうさ

世界中探したって君以上なんて

きっといないって

君がただ笑ってくれるだけでほら

僕の世界は色を変えてゆく

君しか見えなくなる

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

街ゆく恋人達を横目に

今日は僕も大胆に

この胸のドキドキを抑えて

君のその手を奪って

ポケットにしまい込む

ずっと君が探している景色は

いつの日か僕が全部あげるから

僕の手を 握り返した

君の手を離さない

そうさ

世界中探したって僕以上なんて

きっといないって

君もそう思ってくれるだけでほら

どんな季節も夢で溢れてく

君だけを好きでいる

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

世界中探したって君以上なんて

きっといないって

僕らそう想っていられたならほら

時が止まるくらいの幸せが

そういつまでも

I love you !!

世界中探したって君以上なんて

きっといないって

君がただ笑ってくれるだけでほら

僕の世界は色を変えてゆく

君しか見えなくなる

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

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Romaji

Machi wa masshiro ni irodzuita koro

Kienai akari ga tomoru

Yakusoku no ki no shita machiawase

Kyou wa kono machi no dare mo ga

Tokenai mahou ni kakaru

Kimi wa sukoshi okurete kakeashi de

Shiroi iki de yatte kita

Boku no hoho ga akaku somaru no wa

Itsumo yori mo myaku ga hayai no wa

Samusa no sei dake ja nai

Kyou wa kazoekirenai monogatari ga

Kono machi de kiseki wo tsumuide yuku

Kimi no koto konna ni mo

Itoshii to omoeru hodo

Sou sa

Sekaijuu sagashitatte kimi ijou nante

kitto inai tte

Kimi ga tada waratte kureru dake de hora

Boku no sekai wa iro wo kaeteyuku

Kimi shika mienaku naru

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

Machi yuku koibito tachi wo yokome ni

Kyou wa boku mo daitan ni

Kono mune no dokidoki wo osaete

Kimi no sono te wo ubatte

Poketto ni shimaikomu

Zutto kimi ga sagashiteiru keshiki wa

Itsu no hi ka boku ga zenbu ageru kara

Boku no te wo nigiri kaeshita

Kimi no te wo hanasanai

Sou sa

Sekaijuu sagashitatte boku ijou nante

kitto inai tte

Kimi mo sou omotte kureru dake de hora

Donna kisetsu mo yume de afureteku

Kimi dake wo suki de iru

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

Sekaijuu sagashitatte kimi ijou nante

kitto inai tte

Bokura sou omotte irareta nara hora

Toki ga tomaru kurai no shiawase ga

Sou itsumademo

I love you !!

Sekaijuu sagashitatte kimi ijou nante

kitto inai tte

Kimi ga tada waratte kureru dake de hora

Boku no sekai wa iro wo kaeteyuku

Kimi shika mienaku naru

Very Very Merry Christmas to you!!

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It's a very good song, right? I'm very happy my favorite utaites made this song together. The music and lyrics are full of sweetness, no wonder T-kun made this. Together with Amatsuki everything is just perfect for me ><

Now waiting for T-kun version since he said he will sing it and upload it too! ^w^

I'd love to sing it too~

Holy Flag - CHiCO ft. HoneyWorks Lyric

HOLY FLAG

Vocal: CHiCO
Lyrics: shito, Gom
Composition: shito
Arrangement: HoneyWorks

Guitar: Oji
Bass: shito
Piano: cake
Drum: AtsuyuK!

Video: Mogelatte

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Suminareta machi wo dete kara

Dore gurai tatta darou

Kutsu wo narashite utatte aruku

Namida mo karetekita koro ni

“Boku mo tsurete itte, futari nara kowakunai”

Chizu ni nai azemichi narande arukidasu

Hata wo kakagero habamu yumiya

Nagerareru akui mo

Yamanai utagoe de

Waraitobashita

Tachi tomarazu ni yuke~ yuke~

[Kagayaku asa ni ketsui wo

Matataku yoru ni inori wo

Kanaderu oto ni yuuki wo

Bokura no tabi ni uta wo]

Keiyaku mo seiyaku mo nai

Mune no aoi honoo dake sa

Bokura no ishi wa hito kara hito e

Arashi sae jama wa dekinai

Ame ni nureta honoo chiisaku natta toki wa

Harema mieru hou e yorimichi mo shinagara

Hata wo kakagero YAJIru kage wo

Fundzukeru HAAMONII

Yamanai utagoe wo

Tsugi no machi made

Furikaerazu ni yuke~ yuke~

[Kagayaku asa ni ketsui wo

Matataku yoru ni inori wo

Kanaderu oto ni yuuki wo

Bokura no tabi ni uta wo]

Itsudatte bokura wa nayande

Kimerareta kotae wo kowashiteku

Aaa~

Narande arukou

Ai wo tatae yo itamu kizu wo

Iyashiteku HAAMONII

Aoku moeru akashi

Me wo samashita

Hata wo kakagero habamu yumiya

Nagerareru akui mo

Yamanai utagoe de

Waraitobashita

Tachi tomarazu ni yuke~ yuke~

[Kagayaku asa ni ketsui wo

Matataku yoru ni inori wo

Kanaderu oto ni yuuki wo

Bokura no tabi ni uta wo]

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The lyric, composition, vocal, and illustration are so beautiful ><

Original video:

CHiCO ver.

Gumi ver.

kieteshimau

watashi wa... kiete mo ii kana
kono mama de... kiete mo ii kana
mata kako no jibun... baka no jibun ni modoru nante... hontou ni baka da ne
kudaranai
nasakenai
nanno imi mo nai kana
nani mo kawaranai kana
itsumo itsumo furi shiteta
itsumo uso o tsuiteta bakkari
ii ko ni naru... ii chara ni naru
kono baka na jibun o kakusu tame
kekkyoku... gaman dekinai yo
"jinsei tte tada shinario... kamisama ga tsukutta shinario"
sou iu iwarete mo, watashi wa mada wakannai
"dattara, jinsei ni wa imi ga aru no kana," to hitorigata o suru
"baka da na, koitsu"
sou, watashi wa baka da
warui ka?

I Miss My Home ToT

ya, seperti yang tertulis di judulnya
aku kangen rumah ;;_;;
tiba-tiba banget sih emang, tapi serius
terus karena sudden kangen gitu, biar suatu saat nanti aku tetep inget sebebas apapun aku bakal tetep kangen rumah akhirnya aku memutuskan buat nuis lagi di blog "bersarang laba-laba" ini.
intinya itu aja sih
yaah... sebenernya ini lagi berasa rada nggak enak badan
sebenernya dari tadi pagi sih
gatau kenapa... why me why (?)
terus pokoknya sampe sekarang masih rada nggak enak badan
seandainya besok nggak ada kuliah =w=
kenapa besok harus kuliah jam 9??
jam 9 teng banget nih?
i'm so mager //abaikan
ya mestinya ini udah istirahat tapi masih ngerjain tugas orz //terusmalahdistraknulisdiblog //daakumahapa
efek nggak enak badan ngetik jadi nggak bener gini kata katanya ahaha
takut juga itu essay buat tugas bahasanya ngawur, tapi ya mau gimana itu deadline selasa dan mepet banget kalo besok pulang ngampus baru ngerjain, belum ngeprintnya gitu
selasanya ada kuliah dari pagi jadi nggak akan sempet ngeprint
mau nggak mau harus diselesaiin secepatnya hari ini //tapiinimalahnulisdiblogbukannyangerjain
jadi melenceng gini ya topiknya haha
maaf ya sekali lagi itu efek sakit
buat diriku di masa depan, maklum aja ya kalo suatu saat nanti kamu baca tulisan ini
akuilah ini dirimu di masa lalu :')
ya balik ke topik~
jadi karena lagi nggak enak badan, jadi mager banget, buat nyari makan keluar kosan pun malesnya minta ampun haha
terus keinget kalo di rumah mau makan tinggal ngambil piring, ambil nasi dan lauk terus tinggal duduk tenang di meja makan sambil nikmatin makanan yang nggak bisa dibeli dimana pun
ya... makanan buatan ortu maksudnya :')
kangen parah, sudden kangennya tadi karna lagi sakit gini pengennya yang berkuah macem sup gitu tapi disini nyarinya susah, paling adanya sop yg ada daging, tomat, dkk yang udah jelas aku nggak suka
pengennya yang isinya cuma kayak pecai (sawi putih) sama misoa aja
cukup kok, nggak mau yang ribet ribet, tapi justru yang simpel gitu disini susah nyarinya
paling adany macem cap cay dan aku nggak gitu suka, apalagi kalo ada sawi, brokoli dan apalah tau yang rasanya aneh aneh itu
cukup pecai sama misoa yang direbus bareng bawang goreng aja pengennya ;;v;;
nah karna itulah keinget rumah dan jadi kangen, apalagi lagi sakit gini kalo di kosan juga kan nggak ada yang merhatiin, ngasihin makan, ngingetin minum obat dll
masalahnya mau keluar juga berasa pusing
tapi kalo nggak keluar buat nyari makan takut perut kosong terus makin sakit
aduh pengen pulang deh serius
padahal baru dua minggu yang lalu pulang
semuanya gara gara sakit nih
yaudah sekian aja, harus balik lanjutin tugas yang sesaat ditelantarin haha
semoga kapan kapan inget lagi buat nulis di blog penuh kenangan ini ;;w;;